Clouds in the sky

As I was looking out the window and I was looking at the dense white cloud contrasting with the blue sky I thought: “This is what it means to have a close heaven “.

Today I am flying to Malta as we have a women's retreat with the Liberty ladies. I am truly excited about it. Not only it would be my first time in Malta but also I feel I need to be there and it is related to my kingdom marriage. Although I had a video call with friends and we went over what I should be wearing in Malta, for some reason I was still thinking about what should I pack, do I need to pack more trousers, should I bring my blanket. Yes, you read it right when I travel for a long journey and especially to places I do not know. I bring my blanket because your girl right here does not like the cold and do not like to be cold and my blanket is so warm and comfy... Because of all of those thoughts I was not sure what should I bring. I could not sleep the night before my flight due to the excitement. I slept around 4 am and woke up at 6:44 quickly got ready to take the taxi to the airport.

I arrived 3 hours before my flight and met other women from church who arrived early. As I was sitting waiting for the gate to be announced I started to feel sad because of a sentiment of loneliness and heaviness. I am not sure what I was thinking at that time but I could feel this feeling crawling toward me. I said no I would not let this feeling spoil the retreat and I decided to pray along with NSPPD, as Pastor Jerry was praying, he started to declare “rather you have a man or not I do not care... there would be miraculous encounter in November, there would be miraculous weddings in November”. As he was speaking those words I started to cry as I was declaring those words. Although I always knew I wanted to get married and have children, it was the first time I realised how much I wanted to get married, and how much I was longing for it. Only God knows the plan He has for my life but I m certain of one thing, I am entering into my kingdom marriage this year in Jesus' name.

As I was looking through the windows on the plane and saw those white dense clouds I thought there is no such thing as a closed heaven. Heaven is always there, beautiful radiant with different shades of blue for everyone to see and reach. It is there, available waiting for those who decide to go high enough, above those clouds of daily trouble, pain, deceptions, trauma, etc… Indeed there is something better and wonderful beyond those clouds that can reach it.

God is awaiting for you to have enough faith to believe that this current situation and those current feelings are not the end. There is hope, a better tomorrow beyond those clouds. And if you believe and hold on to the truth, it would get better.

The image that comes to my mind is the one of a child that learns how to walk and a father takes a couple of steps back because he wants his child to try and also because he knows his child can do it. The child may try to stand up, do a step, and fall and be upset or cry about it. But if he looks at his father smiling at him, encouraging him, he will believe he can do it, and as he trusts his father, he decides to stand up again do a couple of steps, and reach his father. The joy in his father's eyes and the joy in his eyes are incommensurable.

In the parable of the prodigal son, in Luke 15 v 11-32, we saw the joy of a father to see his son back, and even though his son committed a great offense by claiming his inheritance before his father's death, at that time such request was considered as wishing someone death. And as he was going further and further from the debauchery he lost all he had and he found himself looking after pigs (who were considered uncleansed) and even coveting their food. As he was at his lowest, he remembered he had a father and in his father’s house even the servants were in a better situation than he was, so he decided to go back.

And as he was making his way back to his father's house filled with guilt and shame, willing to lose his status as a son to endorse the one of a servant. He was hopeless yet hopeful that his condition will be better in his father’s house even as a servant. The closer he got louder became thoughts of despair making each step heavier than the previous one. But out of the odds when his father saw him from afar, coming back home, he started to run toward his son.

Looking at the cloud in the sky made me think of this.

I pray that no matter your are going through and despite the clouds that seem to block your heaven, you will push through and breakthrough as God is never too far to be reached.

Stay blessed